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You and I, Together; Forever. (:
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yeah! tOday is SPORTS DAY!!!!! wilLow house's the champion..! *twist!=D* shouted, screamed to the top of my voice..haha..having painful throat now.[sickening] budden, had fun! =) if only i can split myself into parts..then, can i help the friends around me. it's lyk everyone's having their own probs la.so sickening. thanks to evelyn , averil , june , jiahui , michelLe , zane .who accompanied me through the '$^%&% - est ' days of my life..haha.. thankyou evelyn, june and jiahui for 'summoning' my laughters back..=b thankyou averil for the nice nice letter, with alL the nice nice and touching words. making me realise, actualLy, there wilL be a someone out there to understand u, and ur situation. and tt's you! =b thankyou michelLe for the encouraging words. =b thankyou zane for the 'scoldings and naggings', and the sisterly care u've shown. =b was loOking at the darkest side of life a few days ago. was really clOsed to getting depression. but luckily i didnt. =) but those words are stilL repeating in my mind.seriously, I HATE THIS. whenever i see her, those comparisms made by another her, wilL just A-U-T-O pop out..and then cycles inside my brain. sucks.so tt explains why im lOsing and lOsing my confidence. ok, i n0e she's betTer than me. outstanding-er than me in every single way. regardless of loOks, figure, character, attitude, personality, studies..blabla and so on. but! there'd definitey be one thing, AT LEAST one thing, tt have my own uniqueness...i believe and i have faith in myself. haha...surely there wilL be at least one thing de la... aiiyas...k la k la, AT MOST. ok? =b and even if i d0nt have, so wad? she can be the outstanding one. but it doesnt kilL to be the 'in-standing' one right? haha..alL i neEd is my confidence to come back. tt's alL..=D the rest, nah...i d0nt wanna care le. =) though i n0e im an idiotic freak with long hands and long legs. and dot dot face. and #%!#%%$...but,actualLY, being a freak isnt such a bad thing afteralL..=) ok..im starting to feEl the irritate-ness whenever i see u..d0nt know why. upon alL the things u've done for me. i stilL felt irritated. calL me inhuman. [self console] yyy |