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YY YZ JR
You and I, Together; Forever. (:
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im guilty. upon last night's incident, tOtalLy d0nt know how to face everyone n0w. AH! LET ME DIE! it's lyk everything cOme at a go. came in a rush. i hate this! i ruined everything for everyone, ruined everyone's happy moOd, made everybody's day become a dulL one. im sOrry. i n0e i spoilt the whole picture, made a hole in tt nice picture, tt can nvr be mended. thanks for alL the help alL these while, i realLy appreciated it. =) i know i ruined everything, im so shameless. im sOrry. yes. after ytd night, bet everyone's pissed off. i realLy wished alL these things didnt happen. i d0nt want it to happen! but it stilL did. im scared. afraid. worried. lost. troubled. guilty. embarrassed. was controlLing very hard, not to let those stupid tears falL. but i just cant. im sOrry. and even if someone comes right infront of me and give me a tight slap nOw, i would thank tt person.=) cOz i neEded that. i actualLy doubted my feElings for him. -.- maybe it's becOz of my unstable emotion. or maybe it's becOz of the influences around me. but stilL ,IM WRONG TO DO THAT. pls, i realLy neEd someone to give me a tight slap now. maybe one isnt enough. im sOrry. alL the vulgarities ur heard, pls erase it off ur mind. they are not meant for u, it's meant for me. referring to me. cOz i deserve it. =) im sOrry i made everyone pissed off~ im sOrry. i know apologising through blogging realLy does no help. and is lyk a no sincerity thing to do. but other than that, i realLy d0nt know wad to do. at a tOtalLy lost. if it's not for me, maybe ur w0nt be sacrificing ur sleEps. and to suffer the stupid cOld wind blowing tOwards ur.im sOrry. attitude, care-less, ignorance, rude, temper. alL these are wad i've beEn showing to you. treatin u in such a $%(*(@!%$^ way. im worst than a slut. im sOrry qian ying da jie jie~ im sOrry. i realLy d0nt wish to give up. i d0nt wanna give up. but i kn0w i have to. after everything, im embarrassed. dare not ask for anymore. the more im not fit and no rights for you. im sOrry. sOrry that i caused alL these troubles. and got you involved w/o you even knowing wad's happening. i realLy didnt expect things would turn out this way. made you cry and being afraid. im realLy sOrry~ im sOrry. i tOld qy my ans. =) it's alL becOz of my own selfishness, tt started this whole thing. i w0nt expect her to believe me though. after alL these, guess that i have to admit im a shameless bitch.im sOrry. ``When one door closes another door opens, but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.`` im realLy sOrry. [i try to teach my heart not to want the things it cant have.] yyy |