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You and I, Together; Forever. (:
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haiish...lOsin my temper now and then, fOund that theres no one i could reallie trust and no one whom i can reallie confide tO. clement? : nah...d0nt tink so..let him focus his love on the gerl he lyks ba..d0nt wanna disturb...haiish... june, evelyn? : nOpe..they w0nt understand... michelle deariie? : nah-uh...she needs her tym fer her dear dear...=] kelrOy dearie? : its a deifnite nO nO nO...shes troubled enuff..d0nt wanna add to it... qian ying jie? : nOpe..nt reallie tt close to her... willie papa? : nah-uh...he gt toO mani prObs to worrie abt le...=] haiish..feel lyk a burden...an extra...a toOl..a foOl..an idiOt..attitude attitude and still sttitude..haiish...y din i treasure everytink in the past...? him...them...it..everytink...haiish..toOpid me yar...? gOin ard cheerin everyone up...but as fer myself..? i juz cant seemed to cheEr myself up...haiish...act nia mar me...act cheerful nia...haiish...tts y ppl call me slut l0r.. mayb i m juz sensitive...but i kept kena pangseh..haiish...ur may nt tink sO..but i feel sO... everyone ard me juz treats me lyk a toOl..a tOy..happie...stick wif me...all tis...nt happie..dump me aside..kept everytink tO myself..cOz i n0e theres no one i cld reallie trust..swallowin every unsatisfaction and anger into my stomach...in the end..attitude ish wad i get frm myself...felt isolated and neglected...tts nt the firz tym i said tis...ya ya...be irritated..be sianx..but tts how i feel frm the startin of the yr...mayb mum's rite..makin toO much frenz doesnt benefit me much..cOz no matter how much i tried..the results r still the same..livin in a family of cold and darkness..is oredi enough for me..in additional...livin in a wOrld tts isolated..i d0nt know how much longer i can take it..sOmetyms i juz lOck myself in my roOm..on my disc-man and the lOudest volume..tO solitude..but tt doesnt seemed to help..guess i need some counsellin ya...? haiish... i may seemed " cheerful " or rather...i loOked happie...but tts all an act...i was nvr once so happie..nO one understands my character..i reallie misses tOmOko..haiish..wads the point of havin so mani frenz i wonder..in the end..i m the one who is bein isolated in this cOld dark wOrld...wad i reallie need...? i d0nt know..cOz i only nOe tt...i have changed frm a gerl wif no worries...tO a gerl in great depression.............. [who am i?? i wonder..] yyy...
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