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You and I, Together; Forever. (:
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i've graduated and im 18 now. 2010 is arriving. im lost. =/ what's the next step in life? so many things i wanna do but lack of capability. or should i say, it is all redundant in mum's eyes. ): gosh, i hate the feeling of being restricted! choices i made when i was younger, turns out to be a burden for me now. fret not, i will not give up. all these years of friendship destroyed because of one bastard. now i can never treat you the same as i did before. all the lies. never expected, especially from you. opening myself to new people. will i be able to do it? otherwise, will people open up to me? im working almost everyday now. turns out, work is becoming a part of me. work changed me. it's the people there that caused the influence. be it colleauges or customers. one thing to be happy for. (: so what's next? cooking class? a degree course? bike license? im gonna do these first, for now. ;) getting a bike license, then a bike without mum knowing is gonna be tough. guess this equals to suicide. ignoring it for once, coz this is what i want! yyy  happy belated birthday to Singapore! lol, i feel a lil remorseful for the late wishing. it was a special occasion, but that day didnt turn out nice for me and love. ): we went out with 'the friends'. i think 'went out' is an overstatement, becoz normally when you're meeting your friends you'll spend time together; shopping talking bonding etc. throughout the day which love and i made vacant just so we could meet up with'em...we were expecting a more 'get to know' & 'catching up' session. since, it's been ages since 'the friends' and i contacted. and it was love's first time meeting'em! little did we expect, more 'friends' were there. i didnt like what happened. if i had known earlier, i wouldn't bring love and myself there. the rest of the time, we were walking on our own, and we barely even talked. -.- love and i were planning for a more meaningful and memorable day out instead. for you, we put it behind, showed up for your 'date' and compromised whatever you wanna do. im pretty sure we're nice enough, aren't we? when finally, 'the friends' and us bid goodbye. OUR LONG AWAITED FREE TIME. wanted to catch the fireworks but missed it. well, couldn't do much at that time and we ended our day by taking the chock-full MRT back home. 'maybe we need a lil more time to adjust back' was the thought i had until i received the messages from 'the friends'. chop fallen. the whole 'date' thingy was a cover up, it's only a cache for your real motive. what you requested was simply asinine. to you it may be just for fun. but think, the consequences. tsk. sincerely i wanted to help, coz i take you honestly. guess im a twerp to have believed you. i thought our friendship can have a new beginning. but you aren't opening up. neither am i, after this had happened. PS : everything that day was definitely uncalled for. end of rant. caught 'Where Got Ghost'. i thought it's another doltish movie again in the first place. turns out, it's hilarious with some horror scenes that scared the hell outta everyone. another 'Uniquely Singapore.' (: yyy  been away. as usual, was woking schooling studying, dating and stressing. in the midst of this period, i'd learnt things, figured out some things and was enlightened. i call it..' The Independence Training.' every bits and pieces i came across are valuable lessons which bring me to the next level. (every area of me life) well, i finally know why do people age so fast when you reached a certain age. you have to consider all consequences and areas when making a decision. that not only applies to work, but everything in your everyday routine. think before you speak, think before you act, think before you make a decision. blablablablabla..... it's annoying and tiring having to always think like that. but end of the day, i guess we all know it'll help us make the right or at least, safe choice..saving us all the trouble to attend to problems. tsk.. this is yet again, another idiotic soliloquy of mine. so long. yyy
so lately i've been keeping myself rather occupied. i watched BOF (Korean V.), Star Wedding Variety ( only watched the lettuce couple part). addicted to Sims 3 as usual. working, yes..school, not really. anyways, occupied as in....i turn in around 4am, 5am everyday and wake up early the next day! ): after months, i'd finally know what's causing me toothache/gum ache! took an X-ray of my lower left jaw and saw my wisdom tooth clashing against my last teeth. ): of coz, there's also a decay. i hope my wisdom tooth doesnt come out any sooner! Bro just went for his operation and it hurts alot! most importantly, restrictions from a wide range of delicious food! ): Love was sweet! after my dental appointment we caught 'Harry Potter'. was anticipating it since long ago! booked 2 tickets online especially, just to get good seats.. was expecting it to be staggering or something, but turns out to be a total disappointment! tsk... Love and I were window shopping in PS and happened to stop by this 'Toy Catching Machines' area. i'd never tried those before coz you know, it's a total waste of money. i'd rather buy from any gift shops if i ever wanted a soft toy. (which probably won't happen.) we ended up playing, becoz there's this pink bear with claws and we were thinking it'd be good if junior can have it. spent 10bucks. it was my first attempt, not sure Love's. but we managed to win it!! :D (i still think it's a waste of money though.) it was a great day! trust me, we haven't enjoyed ourselves the WHOLE DAY for quite some time already. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D good times always end fast. just before i'd started enjoying myself, assignment deadlines are approaching. =/ as im typing these...im stifling sneezes behind tissue papers. this is so irritating! like a running tap, my nose has been super busy since this morning. and my skin is peeling already! it's gonna sound scary..but i find it kinda funny. coz everyone at home is down with a cold. except for JR. school's started..today the third day of school..didnt attend coz i don't think im in a good condition to. anyone has any solutions for curing my nose? it's super duber annoying! something random....... i love TYZ! muack! :D P.S: im so gonna get Dettol's hand sanitiser. yyy  it pains me heart to witness the changes that took place in you. it's my fault. all i think about was work studies and money..little did i realise that i've been neglecting you all these while. we've been each others' best mate since the day we met. you were always there for me. a lil soul-searching...i realized, i was never there for you... i'd let you down again and again. im a terrible person! ): yyy Labels: q it's been long. here we are, already been through half of year 2009. i remember the last time i had a relishing shopping experience was months ago. so many things that i used to do, no longer exist in my current life. though as every day passes by, im further away from my usual plans..... im actually nearing new things that's gonna happen in my life. i guess that's life. we move on, for better or for worse. the thing to take note of, is that Love's going in army soon..funny how im always rushing him to enter, the earlier you go in, the earlier you come out. but as the matter of fact takes place, i feel so mixed up. sad, happy, excited, scared, worried. a clearer view, i can't bear to be separated from Love. ): there're still months before he is officially serving the nation, right now.. every min every days spent with him are moments to cherish. yea....i should really take more photos and spend more time with him+Junior! we 3 should do more happy things together!! yyy |